When God Winks at me

July 27th 2007 was the day of tears when I cry so many tears because I have to give up my dream to become a teacher.
It was the day when I decided to let go my chance because the salary won’t be enough to help my family. Although all my family was support me to take that chance. That’s when my love to my family wins over my dream.
I let go my dream but not stopping to try to reach them, only this time I select higher salary chance because I don’t want to through the river of tears and hope again.
July 29th 2007 was the day when God winks at me…. That’s the day when I stop angry to God; when I start to gain my happiness again, visiting my family, just have fun…..move on…..
Just arrived at my uncle house at 1am and sleep at 3am after reading my Harry Potter book, I was woke up by the bell from my phone. I remembered it was Mrs. Grace who told me to have a little chat at the school that morning and she has no objection for me to come without CV and wearing Jeans.
So….that’s how I first come to the school, to have a little chat which ends in the afternoon, me becoming a new Biology Teacher.
Believe it or not, my aunt said I have a crying happy face, and I got lost twice that day to my home. The same road I use to trough during the last year and I got lost.
Imagine! That’s how I can’t believe what God have giving me. My dream……… and I still can help my family.
He really loved me……………….:)

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To table square-square

Since when do you teach?

I was interviewed before with my student, and she asked me that question.
My answer was that I teach all my life.
Why?
Because since I answer any questions I teach them what in my mind.
Although I know that she means in institutional the answer will be none. That’s why I really fell gratitude to this school that gives me a chance to teach.
When do I realize that I want to become a teacher?
That will be during my second semester at Diponegoro University when we discuss about an assignment and I explain to my friends, they understand until finally one of them ask how do I know? Is it correct? I answer that is what I think correct; to know the truth they have to ask the lecturer. We laugh together because I was so sure although I don’t sure that is correct. I realize I can teach. And I enjoy doing that.
So in my dormitory during my college I start teaching my roommate English. With that I improve mine too, I have friend to speak so my vocabulary will be increasing.
My best memory will be to table square-square. Why?
Strange sentence in English but has meaning in Indonesian.
At that time the most important for us was to learn how to speak with little vocabulary, so if we don’t know the meaning of one word we will use another words to describe that so………
Have you find the meaning in Indonesia?
To = ke
Table = meja
Square = kotak
Square = kotak
Yeah….. kemeja kotak-kotak (shirt with squares patterns)

For additional, I love children too.. I believe they are our future, what they learn now will form their future.
And I want to make them persons that never giving up, always give their best, have love and dream with knowledge to help them through their future.

May God help me...
Amen.

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Saying good bye to my previous job

July 30th 2007 is the last day of me in my previous job as call center in the busiest provider in Indonesia (we always hope the phone stop ringing).
All my friends surprise, without any news before and that was the last day of me.
It was taking all day for me to saying good bye, because in the afternoon I start to pack all my stuff and I move to Serpong.
My twins Ria ( we work in the same company, neighbors, and we have the same image without blood relationship but already become good friends) call her aunty who has a travel business to help me find a car to move to Serpong.
My grateful to my dear Ria.
I have to say goodbye to my roommates to………… Oh, that’s hard, I really like them all. We already become good roommates.
Venty my senior not only in the job but also in that home where we rent our rooms has always become a friend to share all from jobs to relationship, a friend to shopping together every months....oh how I miss that time.
Asri is a reporter in magazine for teenage, we both like reading and I can always believe that she will recommended good book worth to read and buy. We are not exactly have the same taste, but for novels mostly we like the same kind.
Mr.Aris from whom we always buy our dinner, fried rice, noodle, with special orders. His cook very delicious……………..yummy!!
And although the job as call center was full of stress, sometimes full of happiness too… there was so many funny consumers that can always make us laughing and cheers our day. And I found really good friends there, working together with them have give me lots of joyful and meaningfully year.
I miss them all…………………

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My happiness in their smile

Do you know what I like the most of being a teacher?
Lot of holiday?
Yeah that’s right, we have long holiday three times a year, during Christmas, Moslem New Year, and semester holiday.
No one think it’s a bad job but bad salary.
Well that’s good reasons, but that’s not why I loved it the most.

So what is it?

I never went home with emotionally tired from school,
some times just physically tired.
Because, that time I teach all day long and I have to walk around the school all day.

But when I had a really bad day… or I met some one I hate, or I’m just feeling sad….
I really enjoy being in class
Because, when you look them; specially, when they smile, or look at you with hope …
kind of hope…..
Ho
Any pe to be forgive because don’t bring their home works, forget their books
Hope to get easy questions for the test,
Hope to just have fun in the lessons
Well that kind of look makes them look so cute and fulfill my hearts with happiness that completely erasing my stress.
So I always wish that the day after my sadness is the day when I have a lot of class.
If I have no class that day I will go the library where I often meet kindergarten or elementary students….
Their cute face gives me hope that I still have things to do
That the day isn’t over yet
That life is beautiful
Their smile can always make me smile back at them.

Isn’t being a teacher so fun?
Your soul vitamin is in your job…….

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My first time in class

August 1st 2007
What my first feeling?
Relieve and disappointed.
What?
Oh that’s not for the first time of me to be in front of class but because I heard that I will be observing the previous teacher and I will start teaching next month. So I’m still observing…………disappointed but relieve, because I really no ready yet. I never study biology this last year, I close my biology books since my graduation, and honestly I’m not so confidence.
So that morning I’m preparing my best suit, a suit that make me look like a smart teacher, a black blazer and trouser with white skirt underneath. And a black orchid pin that I put in the blazer.
My first day in school was started with introduction to all of the teachers, and I’m so nervous that I forget their name in a second! My suit didn’t give me lots of help.

So the first time I went to a class was for introduction! And I even can not do a good introduction because I was so exited all that words went away from my mind.
For what grade do I teach? The seventh Grade of Junior High School.
They were just Childs? Yeah…… but still their cute faces make me nervous!
All I can say just “My name is Miss Ira and I will be replacing Mr.Darma to become your Biology teacher.” That’s all!!!!!!
And I believe I make funny gestures that show my nervousness because they smile and laughing at me.

Oh what a day……….

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Moving out

That afternoon become a really busy chaotic day, moving out with one day of preparation I will never suggest any one to do that!
I never though I have so many things.
I never though before that a small room can be so full of things. My previous room was 6 m2, and my stuff can full a mini bus!
Okay I did put my TV in our living room,
Okay I did lend many books to my friends,
and the shoes were outside too,
the laundry,
and the buckets………
Okay that’s a lot of stuff……..
What ever, I was so lucky I have friends to help me packing all that stuff and move it into the car that I rent.
We cry…… I can’t believe this, I only move to Serpong from Jakarta and we all cry…
I really am going to miss them.
I fell so tired that day so I was slept during our journey, thanks to the driver who can find the way because I was totally lost.
When I first arrived to the teacher’s dormitory for the school’s employee my first impression was: big, no flower, big trees, lots of mosquitoes. But guest what?
My room was totally bigger, with table, chair, spring bed, big shelf for books, and a large cabinet for my cloth.
After I finish put all my things and do all the cleaning I finally in bed at 11pm. Can hardly close my eyes… tomorrow I will become a teacher.. Biology teacher!!
I’m so happy yet scare too
All these year in front of me was just computer and telephone, and tomorrow will be 30 students.
Wow………….!!!! I really don’t know what to do!!!
But I really exited to start teaching.
Finally I just sleep for one hour that night.

Can’t wait to start…………

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Lesson plan

This is my hardest thing being a teacher,
Why is it so complicated?
Why can’t we just make a simple lesson plan?
Why we have to think so detail while in reality different class will give different respond to the lesson and finally we have to improvise.
Okay if the lesson plan already exist and all we have to do is how to make it works, I loved it!

But as a new teacher………who never really have a plan, not even have preparing the lesson before, not even know what the tools in school that I can use, not even remember all the student’s names and they haven’t put their name tags so I give up giving the behaviors score while doing the first assessment on process.
I find out that I have not enough time to do all of that in perfection.
And I don’t even have a PC to help me doing that at home.

So………………..
That’s my reasons to buy this PC.
So in the next semester I can give my best to my students, and hope to finish my lesson plans.

I do a lot of asking to my teachers friends, I do a lot of study from the internet.
But what really hard is because my plans changing a lot when I have new ideas or find a better way to teach them or the school facilities cant be used because other teacher use it or the material I will use hard to get.

Well…. My dear friend, I’m still learning………….
Every day I learn new things
How to turn on the projector
How to make reservation for audio visual room
How to make the best preparation to save time
How to make my students behavior nicely during the process
How to use touch screen ( my first time touch it was while I teach my student, they teach me how to use it, aren’t they so nice?)
How to gain their interest………………

And lots more.

But my lesson plans keep changing.

I have to work it out.
ASAP

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